
Erik Condia
Miscarriage + Pregnancy Tests
Updated: Nov 6, 2018
I remember looking at my first pregnancy test almost two years ago and looking at a faint pink line. Oh my gosh.

Is this real? I don't even really think it sunk in, but we were excited. You don't expect a miscarriage to happen to you. You hear it's 1 in 4, but you don't think you'll be apart of that club. Well. I am. I don't wish it upon anyone, but at the same time, I'm glad it happened to me. Why? It gave me empathy. It taught me so much. It allowed me to grow closer to Jesus. A miscarriage shattered my heart and allowed me to love harder. I've been able to connect and chat with so many other ladies. So. Here we are on our TTC journey. Last night, we went to the store to buy new tests. I feel so badass. Sounds silly, right? I didn't know how I would feel. I didn't know if it would make me cry or excited or neutral. I walked in. Grabbed them. Didn't think twice. Just did it. I'm not sure how I will feel once I use them, but for now, I feel pretty freaking brave. It sounds silly-- maybe-- but to me-- this is 100 addressing and mentally pushing through a trauma that completely knocked me off my feet almost 2 years ago. Dear friends who are struggling to get pregnant, my heart is with you.
I don't know your pain, but I just know how brave you are to keep moving forward in such hardship. Dear friends who have had a miscarriage.
There's no protocol for this.
There's no "right" time frame.
This is your journey. I'm here for you. Dear friends who haven't experienced a miscarriage or trouble with getting pregnant-- thank you for your support and love. I know you don't know what to say or even if you should bring it up-- know this, your friend dealing with infertility or a miscarriage is in pain and you acknowledging their pain is a beautiful thing.
Anyone else sharing their journey publicly? I’d love to connect and support you.