TTC + Miscarriage + Jealousy
Updated: Nov 6, 2018
This is so on my heart. This is real.
The pain. When I had a miscarriage... I swear to you... Swear. That everyone became pregnant and had positive pregnancy tests...the announcements, the gender reveal parties, and baby showers. Everywhere. Do you want to know why? That’s where my focus was. That’s where my heart was shattered. I prayed. I prayed that I wouldn’t build up walls and become bitter. I still would cry— because it’s a trigger, but would still be so thankful, happy, and grateful. Know this. Please. Know this. Your pain is so significant. So significant. You are allowed to feel the way you feel. However, there is a space where you have to acknowledge that your pain is real and the journey of others is something they are allowed to feel too. Being bitter doesn’t feel good. It just produces more anger and pain. I wouldn’t wish this pain upon anyone. Someone else’s blessing isn’t meant to punish us. All you want is your pain acknowledged. When others experience the blessing your heart desires— 1. Pray for your heart. 2. Celebrate them (there can never be too much good— those blessings will help your prospective.) 3. Connect to a community who UNDERSTANDS your pain and that encourages you not to dwell and stay stuck in it. This is KEY. Jealously is real. Feel your feels. But the way your heart will heal is through gratitude and joy. Your best friend doesn’t want to ruin your life by getting pregnant, sister. They shouldn’t stop their journey because of where you’re at with yours. I’m here for you. I’m so here for you.